Sybilla: Yet Another EHB Novella
- I was always "one alone." I don't know at what early age I first began to think, in fact, according to our present ideas of reflection, I don't know that I ever thought at all until I was seven years of age. Then it was that a change occurred in my little life, which I now believe awakened thought within me. Prior to that scarcely mature age I seemed to live a kind of strange double life -- too difficult for me to comprehend or think about. One life was passed partly in a fair-sized roomy attic, which my motber rented, and where she kept house - she and I together - cooked, and eat (sic) our humble meals, and slept, and partly in a National or public sohool for very young children, amongst whom I passed several hours of each day, except Sunday. I dearly loved Sunday, because on that day I was free from school - free to spend it with my ever dear, dear precious mother, w hom I so tenderly loved that I think now she was my sole idea of all existence outside myself - that is, in this my first life. This beloved mother of mine was a ballet dancer at one of tbe great metropolitan theatres. She had to leave me then very often; nearly every morning, in fact, to go to what she called rehearsals; and always of an evening, some time long after I bad been put to bed. I never slept though, until she was gone, because I so dearly loved to watch her as she moved about the garret, or sat working and humming sweet low pathetic airs. I hardly knew, at that time, what a "Ballet Dancer" was - I knew it must be something very fine and bea.utiful, first, because my beautiful mother was one; and next, because she began to prepare me for the same charming profession. How I enjoyed the lessons she gave me no words can express. I could not only do all the steps, attitudes, pirouettes, and figures she put me through, but it seemed to me often that I could have sprung higher, bounded more lightly and swiftly than her lessons permitted. Oh, they were glorious! and when I was told that some day I, too, should be a "Ballet Dancer" like my mother, I was almost, frantic with delight, and only lived in anticipation of when that happy time should arrive.
Labels: Emma Hardinge, Emma Hardinge Britten, Emma Hardinge-Britten


